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今日は楽しかった。

i'm like feelin' so relaxed and all right now. it's all-so-different as compared to that freakin' week before promos. but i've gta work hard for comm serve and jap, rlly. think i took at least 3 hours researching on the jap scholarships and whtever that has got smt to do with japan.

i've decided to try out for JLPT 2 this year, EJU Examination and JLPT 1 next year. hopefully with my JLPT 2 results and H1 results i'll be able to apply for the jap govt scholarship in march next year. i've been wanting to do nutrition since last year and was quite certain that i'll take it. but, i was thinkin' through ystd and i thought chem's rly impt in nutrition. and i dnt know why, i sorta gave up on this "dream" of mine cause my chem simply, to put it crudely, sucks ttm. maybe i shld change my ideal course. definitely, it HAS got to do with jap. maybe i'll take tourism in japan? or smt related to social sciences. nth to do with bio and chem and math. i'll gladly take it up.

ohwells, enough of me blabbering about my future plans. went CDAC today. it was soooooo quiet today.. only shaun, yixuan, doreen and yizhen came cause the rest already had their end of year exams. SHAUN'S SUPER LAZYYYYY ohmyy. he just anyhow guessed all the answers for his math mock paper. grrrr but managed to get him to do it properly in the end. tht's quite lucky for MEEEE. haha.

went to meet gem for dinner after that. been ages since i met her for a meal. probably months? can't rmb the last time. dang. haha but ohwells, had a great time with her today : ) ate yoshi & walked around bugis. cant rmbr the last time we went there tgt too. haha nostalgic.


a photo took after the moon turned DARK blue.

girl's gna take her o's in 8 days & everything's ending in 33 days. everyth just flies. before we know it, everyth's over. just realised i made use of a lot of "everything". -laughs.

gna teach my cousiee tmrw. poor primary 1 has got his exams on monday. his darling jiejie will offer her help to the pretty boy tmrw. see you wei : ) oh but before that i've gt to buy my unicom jap listening book! ohmy.. $58.00?! bye to my monnnneeehhh.

-why? it hurts.

When I'm With You - Faber Drive

Saw you walk in to the room,
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe, am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day half the time
I've been away I know I'm not there enough,
but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back to show you that
I'm keeping the promise i made

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
whenever you're not around
when I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now,
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

Yeah, we've had our ups and downs,
but we've always worked 'em out
Babe, am I ever glad we got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight wishing
I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough,
nothing feels right so I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one, and i know you can see right through me so let me go and you will find someone
My only one
you are my only one

:/

woke up at 8 this morning to do pw :/ rly hope can hurry finish get over and done with.

have got:

1. Jap alvl papers 2&3 undone
2. PW
3. Comm Serve yet to be confirmed
4. Plan jap lessons for CDAC kids

no. 1 jst makes my heart break. danggg. wells, i shldn't be feeling sad anymore.

anyw, i asked jenny a qn ystd,

ME: Ong ah, i ask you a very qian bian qn k!

Ong: hahaha, wht?!

ME: Why am i so nice ah?

Ong: (BURSTOUT LAUGHING) HAHAHAHAHAHA!

it was tt moment when it was superrrrrrrrr funny. hahahaha. oops. k, maybe you guys cannot unstd but well, HAHAHA. it was funny :)))

random quizzz

thanks to cher, haha.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY

1. monster

2. lynnie

3. YO!

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD

1. LJH_lynn (i wonder wht LJH represents)

2. extreme_lynn

3. i can't think of anymore zzz

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

1. my legs? quite muscular i think? haha.

2. i used to like my coolio hair. dang.
3. my face : )

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

1. my arms are too FAT!
2. too little hair

3. i'm too short

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE

1. JAPANESE

2. hainanese :D

3. i'm hokkien : ) but i speak hainanese =.=

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU

1. FLYING BEETLES
2. jap orals
3. scrolling down your contact list and find nobody to confide in

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS

1. Handphone

2. toilet, like who doesn't need?! haha.

3. sleep

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW

1. my orange-white fbts

2. vj shirt
3. (whtever inside)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW)

1. a lonely september - plain white t's

2. why - secondhand serenade
3. please don't tell her - jason mraz

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER

1. i did smt that i've NEVER done in my entire life.
2. i cried like shit ystd.
3. i ate dinner today :D

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU

1. no pock-marked face/pimple-free : )
2. huggable! (this is impt)

3. no B.O

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES

1. drink you-know-what

2. pool!

3. hanging ard and talk crap w friends : )

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW

1. live in japan
2. stop thinkin' about stuffs
3. TURN EIGHTEEN

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED

1. NUTRITIONIST/DIETITIAN

2. japanese tour guide : D (mtien will be my first customer yay!)

3. teach english in japan hoho.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION

1. JAPAN

2. London

3. Australia

THREE NAMES YOU LIKE

1. tzen

2. nakatsu shuuichi

3. fawn! eh i think your name's cool! haha.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

1. go wherever i wanna go.
2. speak like a native jap.
3. tell everyone whom i care for,"i love you!"

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL

1. EAR STUDS

2. i actually like flats. it goes well with jeans :)
3. MY HAIR's like DAMN impt.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY

1. Short hair

2. my dress sense

3. hates ah lianxz

THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW

1. cheryl

2. estee

3. gem

the metal heart survived. haha.

HAPPY HARI RAYA!

yosh! また２日間！2 more days to ORAL! -shivers

3rd OCTOBER (stares at jaspang) i dnt wanna screw up, totally.

anyw, ystd was damn funny. cynthia, rebekah, chengyan, youngmin and I were TRYING means ways to get the TWO tgt. oops. it'll be so fun to have a 3rd lang couple! : D ohmyy. let's jst wait and see !

had a longgggg text convo ystd & i sort of made up my mind : )

頑張って！

my poor pinkieee :\

my poor pinkiee, now it's all swollen and PURPLISH :/ :/

anyw, it happened like this, had interact meeting til 2 and met up with estee and her classmates for some bball game & THE BALL JAMMED MY PINKIEE ): ): now it's so pain. WHATSMORE, i've got guitar prac tmrw! HOW TO PLUCKKKK. sheesh.

nah anyw, it's okay. took exco photos today whee : )



pretty EXCO <3s

yuppyupp. k anyw, i randomly thought of this imagery. try it out. haha, imagine you are drinkin' with your love one alongside singapore river one pretty night, what will happen next? TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK K : ) HAHAHAHA. -giggles (to cheryl)

it's a thought-provoking sunday

wells, watching hanakimi halfway & decided to just drop a post.

the show, smhw, inspired me a lot. i'm, i dnt know wht to say, and how to feel.

it's been long. alright, probably not as long as it probably is but nobody unstds (except, perhaps, 1?).

kanji wa, hen da na... dnt ask me wht happened cause you wldn unstd.

smt lighter now! hey if you guys are bored, watch jap dramas. they are SOOOO INTERESTING! since most of you may be rotting at home now. -laughs.

PROMOS ARE FINALLY OVERRR -heaves a sigh of relief

: ) i'm quite happy now. just got back from macs with jenny. the poor girl's rly muggin' hard for A's. all the way girl i love you! : )

anyw, think im gna !@#$%^&* screw up my promos. wait til i get my results. i bet i'm gonna get !@#$%^&*( kinda results too :\ but whtever it is, i'm not brooding over it & i wnt. unless i get like 5 Us or smt? haha.

ystd was uhm, fri? went out with estee, mindy, cheryl and peetee. watched mamamia, and seriously, i dnt think it's niceeee. was so fidgety durin' the whole show. only managed to concentrate when they started singing funny songs like "super trouper" & "dancing queen" -LAUGHS. &after that, shopping with cheryl and estee was FUN ttm. sadly for peetee and mindy who doesn have the mood to shop, they went to eat at yosh's. lol. we took quite smtime at Cotton On i suppose? bought 2 pweeetttyyy shirts! : D

&guess wht, i pleaded my mum t cut my hair for me. it's MUCHHHHHHHH better now alright! i was so TRAUMATISED when i cut my hair last Sunday. until ystd. ohmyy. i dnt EVEN wanna think abt how my hair looks ystd. DANG.

this is the result of my mum's efforts haha.


okay it may be like the same to you BUT definitely NOT the same to me. haha. my hair's just too impt to me until i wnt be able to sleep if it gets screwed :/

went out with ong tdy to study supposedly BUT i ended up watching j-dorama. and at 12+ i received jaspang's message & I GOT REMINDED THAT I GOT TO BE AT PAYALEBAR FOR CDAC. i'm super forgetful. damn. then had to make my way down. luckily i was there on time..

anyw, i was damn sian diao when i went there but at the end of the session my mood was muchhh better. i dnt know why. must be shaun la. made me so angry until i forget my emo-ness. -giggles.

anyw, gotta continue my jap HANAKIMI! byyeee.

to end off, ESTEE WUUU. HOWWWWW. I DNT WANT TO SINKKKKK.

A Lonely September

PLAIN WHITE T'S LYRICS

"A Lonely September"

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out'
cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
And I didn't mean to meet you thenwe were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chillsthe way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

been ages since i've posted. so just decided to post some short thoughts up here.

i look like feng tianwei!? haha. she's cute, so am i. HAHA.

anyw, been mugging for the past few days. getting shagged. but i realised that school's a really good place to study though i take ages to reach. smhow, it's the distance that makes me willingly wake up early to study. today wasnt really productive thou. had midautumn performance for chai chee elderly today. haha. quite okay i guess : )

-feelings never fade.

finally

finally, econs & chem tests are over.

these two stupid tests drove me crazy. actually, it's not really the tests' problem. i've been worrying & worrying & worrying over jap exam. it's jap prelim exam next week. same day as the J2 prelim GP paper. it's my love, i mean jap. but yet, i'm still unable to do well in it. smtimes i tell myself tht if i love the subj i will do well, but smhw, my results do not reflect that.

yknow, i know it's super exaggerating. but this subj, just this subj can make me go into depression. i'll jst have to work hard for it. i'm really tired.

took a cab this morning cause i was too tired. gonna save from today onwards. spent $13 on cab fare and $1.70 in school today. for the next few days i aim not to spend a single cent, i promise.

& i realised how "responsible" some people are. jc's a time to observe and learn, at least to me.

- & i feel alone. i need a hug. tell me everything's okay.

finally finally, connect singapore is OVER.
i'm really tired&all. nonetheless, i think i've learnt a great deal from this. there's a lot a lot that all of us have learnt and gained. i cried after the event but it's jst my natural reaction. it was a lot of time spent on this on my side, so any normal person will feel that way but it's okay i suppose i'm fine now.

i have to thank phs teachers in charge, ms chung and ms kumari. without their help, nothing could have worked out. also aps teachers for all their unstding.

most imptly, my team:
hanyi, elin, jaspang, kailing, wilson, ciyi, patrick, saravanan, kaye, cindy, huimin, sushuen, sylvester, varian, benedict&changhong.

to all these people, i apologise if at anytime during the process i made you all very confused and all, &like my instructions were not clear smtimes. think i shouted over the phone quite a lot of times tdy, but hope all of you unstd. thanks for all of your help.. i rly rly appreciate everything.

jst a few photos: on wednesday, feeling fab! baked banana muffins& made tiramisu : )


&on thursday, received a bottle of mogumogu from youngmin-san. thanks my dear : )


on thursday too. haha fawn's farting domo-kun. haha it looks so cute : )


& the all-so-niceeeeeeee gelare that izz&jingyang had at ps tdy after connectsing.


this pretttyyy doraemon electric guitar that we saw at peninsula plaza.. $880/= seriously, it was really cute and unique..


i'm not in much of a mood to blog today..

but anyw, i'm happy cause i bought stuff for my pretty seniors : ) haha. it's so weird when i feel happy to spend money on others while feel stingy when i have to spend money on myself. mmhmm.

okay, i'm not gonna be angsty anymore. mugging starts tmrw officially. all the best everyone!

: )

i find this collage really nice :D happy memories :D

yayy. going to bed now. nights.

okay, i just finished my bio eassessment. rawr. had 14, then 19 (STUPID CARELESS MISTAKE) followed by 20. okay laaa at least i managed to get a 20 in the end :D

anyw, LOOK AT THE PRETTTTYYY phone up there! GOODNESS ME. the new w980 sony ericsson walkman phone! i was walking around amk hub ystd & i sawwww that! omgg and i saw someone buying it. newly released on 2nd august, but only exclusive to singtel. TSK. WHAT IS THIS MAN. HELLO STARHUB, DO SOMETHING. URGHH. anyw, i really needa get a new phone. but my 6120c brings me loads of memories thou :( :( i'm not gna trade it in so it's hokayy!

or shld i get this? w890i. it's actually good enough for me i suppose.

it's so sleek and quite high class smhw! i wanted to get the w880i last time alrdy. so might as well just get the improved version, wht do you guys think?

sighs. okay.

anyw, i'm still waiting for the updated schedule of PHS for connectsing.. but til now, no news. i'm really getting scared. it makes me feel like a loser. as in the whole programme. it's sometimes so confusing that makes me think twice if i actually make a good in-charge. i've NEVER felt so screwed with projects before. maybe tht's the reason why i've always been emoing. but tht's not all laa. many contributing factors. one major one thou. til now, i've not yet settled that. i dnt know whyy i'm freaking worried about connectsing. i really dnt know why. enlighten me people.

was very emo ystd. sighs. i need extra comfort. & shaun got angry with me cause i never buy him chocolates. wht.. shall get for him after natl day.. kids get angry at the smallest things. but i wish i were them smtimes. so carefree & all :(

everybody in my fam's still ZZZ while i'm up studying & trying to get stuffs right. wht shld i do next? study jap. yes, i shld. prelim's in 3 weeks time. oh and guys, remember, guitar assessment on 4th! which is tmrw laa, duhh. i needa practise later as well. all the best dudes : )

i'm suddenly very sleepy. alright, that's not the point. haha. just came back from thomson medical after visiting mtiennnn. that girl ah. has fever AGAIN. so her mum thought of an alternative method. she's so gonna eat the fever medicine that i ate the other time. i'm sure she'll recover! : ) anyw, i had quite a fun them there joking around with her and her mum : )

back to this morning. ohmyy. i actually missed my stop. YKNOW, NOBODY FROM VJ TRIED WAKING ME UP?! when there were like VJ people on the bus?! like wth. anyw, that's not the worst. i came down the double deck & asked the uncle where VJ was & he told me i missed the stop. so nevermind. i went to the bus stop and the moment i saw 31 i took it without realising that it was heading towards the WRONG DIRECTION. so smart. did you know how i realised that it was travelling in the wrong direction? i saw a lot of TJ people & i was like,"why are T people travelling in the VJ direction?!" i got off the bus & decided to ask jaspang for help. sighs. in the end had to cross the overhead bridge and take another bus back to vj. rawr.

tdy was a fine day i suppose. suddenly very into my work. after schl i actually STUDIED with estee in V21. amazingly..

just a short update here. gotta go bathe now & start rotting. tmrw there's connect sing training in schl & CDAC. busy day ahead. bye !

a day at home

feeling so nasal & all. sighs. i haven't been sick to such an extent for SOOO long. and i so detest, loathe, hate, blah, whatever words you can use, eating medicine. esp the stupid throat and flu medicine which is so bitter. it got stuck in my throat and i could totally feel the yuckkkkiness. rawr.

was so piggg today. woke up at 10+.. ate some stuff and then ate my medicine. copied everything that i missed last week & 2 days ago & then went back to sleep cause apparently the flu medicine causes drowsiness. i've got a feeling i will fall back to bed again cause i ate my medicine AGAIN. rawr. i hate being sick. & cause i was so dead ystd, i screwed my chem spa which was SO easy. AHHH. wasted. feeling so angsty now. hoho.

i'm sweating profusely now, which i dnt know why. AHHH and i wonder how mtien is now. can't go visit her : ( okay i think i need to go to bed again. sighs.

dnt feel bad, because you really didn't do anything. at least you cleared your mind, yes? : )

i'm sick

feeling really sick now. running a temperature and having a throbbing headache, backache and blah. sad to say, i didn't go for 3rd lang again. how many times already huhh. really sad. rawr. i wanna do my work but i can't think properly with my headache. i dnt know why i'm thinking that i contracted dengue. haha shld be cause of mtien eh! haha. & weirdly, my temperature keeps flunctuating up & down! 15 mins ago it showed a different temperature! :\

anyw, this morning ian wu was damn funny. IAN WU ! YOU OWE ME A DRINK! smhow his weirdness made the first smile of my day. haha. jiayou dude! oh & i had connect sing SL training at PHS today. haha. the teacher in charge was really nice! at least she didn't pms me or smth! i expected that before i went.. everything was okay, just that we didn't follow the plan at all cause some level had d&t coursework, the others had ndp rehearsals at marina bay. so, eerything ended real fast. i zoomed past my presentation like nobody's business. but anyw, it wasn as bad as i expected, seriously. hope everything goes fine.

gonna go rest & wait for my mommy to come back so that i can go see a doctor. DR YAPPPP SAVE MEEE.

oh crap, i just remembered, my WRITTEN REPORT!?

pray for mtien : (

: ( mtien's blood platelet count went down to 79.

went to visit her tdy again with peiting. she was fine when we went there but when were about to leave, her face was so pale and her lips were purple : ( i'm like quite worried now. sighs. hopefully it's not dengue..

& my thing comes on the dot now and it's irritating. i wish it will never come man. rawr. eeyer. plus there is like PE tmrw and it's gna be my 2nd day. gonna flood like mad. tsk.

loads of work to do : ( sighs.

college day !

hoho, ong just left my house after her econs tuition with my bro : )

anyw, today was college day & i'm sure everyone just lan diao the whole afternoon, yes? haha. was around 2.45pm when i received a text mesg from mtien's mum about mtien being admitted to thomson medical hospital. i was damn shocked & worried, seriously. after calling i came to realise that she got suspected dengue. sighs. hopefully it isn't dengue : ( anyw, after college day i went to look for her at her ward. lingered for around 2 hours before i decide to go home. was quite productive there thou. haha. managed to study some jap. &mtien looked perfectly fine. she she'll be as fine tmrw, i'm sure : ) think i'm gna go visit her tmrw again : )

i'm getting more cheery now : ) which is good, i think : )

&elin and jan! stop making fun of MEEEE. RAWR. haha.

HALFDAY !!!

sighs. gonna go for college day later. anyw, gonna update about ystd before i go get ready to go bishan to collect my connectsing stuff : )


firstly, DARK KNIGHTS with ST, jaspang, benjamin (jaspang's cousin), and jingwen (benjamin's friend). the show is totally action packed man., cldnt take some of the parts.. stupid joker kept changing his story about how he got the scars on his face. RAWR. i was like trying to control my bladder throughout the whole show?! haha but it was too excitingg so i didnt wanna miss any parts of it. UNTIL THE END, i was like OHMYGAWDDDD. and the stupid toilet was so farrrr away?! tsk.

actually we decided to play pool at paradiz BUT, sad to say, we werernt allowed in cause we were in uniform. URGHH. so, went PS instead. walked walked & walked. and mtien called me! cause she's at PS already. AWWW so sweet, she actually came to look for me alright! haha (not sure if it's true) but ANYW, the both of us DAMN on. we decided to go kbox. haha.

the both of us took like ard TWO freakingg hours to open our voice boxes. ohmyy we sang like dno wht shit for 2 hours. luckily it was 3 hours, so we just chiong a lot of songs at the end. haha recorded some songs. shall try to upload the next time : )

then at night, OHMYY. JAN & ELIN KEPT BULLYING POOR LYNN ): stares at my tagboard. spammed their PM with "who does LYNN love" and blah. and tsktsk syamil confessed k! haha. just kidding. bunch of crazy exco members. *laughs.

alright, shall leave now : ) see you people in schl afterwards : )

what a day!

feels good to be sleeping til 10oo today : )
anyw, just to provide some entertainment for myself. HAHAHA. tht's my brother's specs that im wearing. SO CUTEE. ohmyy. i can't take it. hoho : ) talking to shin ong now, like finally & she thinks i'm cute too! HAHA.



-why do you act like you care? when i feel that you actually don't?

drunk;

hey guess what, i'm drinking alone.

kahlua milk. but smhow, i'm not getting tipsy (sorry syamil) haha.

off to work now.

-

there can be miracles, when you believe.

i'm getting more & more matured as i realise more & more from you.

i'm thoroughly ):

I heard you're doin' OK,
But I want you to know
I'm addict,
I'm addicted to you

I can't pretend I don't care
When you don't think about me
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
But you left anyway
I'm tryin' to forget that
I'm addicted to you

But I want it
And I need it
I'm addicted to you
Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

Since the day I met you
And after all we've been through
I'm still addict,
I'm addicted to you

I think you know that it's true
I'd run a thousand miles to get you
Do you think I deserve this?

I tried to make you happy
I did all that I could
Just to keep you
But you left anyway

I'm tryin' to forget that
I'm addicted to you
But I want it
And I need it
I'm addicted to you

Now it's over
Can't forget what you said
And I never
Wanna do this again
Heartbreaker
Heartbreaker

How long will I be waiting?
Until the end of time
I don't know why I'm still waiting
I can't make you mine
I'm tryin' to forget that
I'm addicted to you



ESTEE WU! here's a gift for you : ) haha. thanks for always listening to me my dear friend! & just telling you that i'm giving up. haha.. do you feel the tinge of sadness in that "haha"? okay whatever.

gonna help my mommy dye her skirt now. bye for now!

YUYING STUDENTS' OUTING @ ECP

had SHG outing today! but it rained halffffway ): poor pang, nicholas&me planted the treasure hunt stuff and it POURED damnnn heavily. in the end the kids didn't get to play it and our efforts went down the drain. sighs ): &after everything, we tried digging out our "treasures" but yknow, it didn't work. the papers got super lan diao. so we just forget it. and yknow, JIMMY LEFT US AT ECP! THEY JUST LEFT WITH THE BUS AND ANDDD FORGOT ABOUT US. but haha nvrmind, we weren't angry or anything. haha.

anyw, we had real fun BEFORE the rain. played frisbee & built sandcastles. had real fun burying others' slippers too. HAHA.

and for once (after the outing) after SOOO freakinggg long, i FINALLY went shopping and it was with pang&her sister! haha her sister's totally like her. interestingg. lol.

meeting estee for impt stuff tmrw.

sighs.

i'll nvr be as good.

what a stressful life !

1245am right now & i've just finished my jap e-learning homework. i've yet to complete my essay tho' :(

i had sucha tiring day today. as usual lessons were on, then after that had to help out at the science carnival. there were 2 sessions & after the first one i was smhow really tired. but had to carry on with the second workshop.

so we left at ard 5.30? went to grab some food and tada, i dnt know why i reached home at 7.30. which was quite late considering that i took two whole hours to get home. the moment i reached home, i reached for my comp ALTHOUGH I FORESEE like, TRAUMA for myselffff. & indeed, i was right. spent TWO HOURS replying emails, messaging, calling & all.

ahh forget it, let's talk abt ystd instead, i'll feel much happier!

presenting the BAILEYS IRISH CREAM ICECREAM, TADAAAA.

so happy looking right! was shiok ttm! and the rum&raisin's another one, super strong. cher said my face was red but NO, hello i was perfectly UNdrunk. haha and we played TABOO. oops i didnt know to play but now i know alright, DNT LAUGH. haha.

alright, the stressed and emo kia's gonna go to bed. i want some motivation. who would give it to me? :)

-i dnt want anymore mindgames.

ran fifteen rounds today.
and i think and think and think.

now shan't think anymore, provided i can stop myself, haha.

i love guitar, it's basically, my life.

Guitar Farewell

GUITAR FAREWELL

ystd was so damn damn fun : )

was such an excitinggg day : ) i just dnt know how to describe my happiness, seriously. but before anything else,

HAPPY SEXY 18th BIRTHDAY FAWN and IRIS! : )

back to topic. alright, went for tea ceremony in the morning with jaspang, youngmin and siyuan. haha. it was such an interesting ceremony!! was laughing throughout the whole session!

tht's our group photo after the ceremony. like 80% made up of RGS girls. haha.

it ended super early. was suppose to end at 12 but smhow, it ended before 11am. so we rot and rot til my dad came to fetch pang and me to bugis. left for cca after that at payalebar. ystd was hectic. rushing here and there. smhow everybody LOVES 12th july. everything falls on tht day. wth. haha. wht's excitinggg was after SHG. pang decided not to go for farewell just before farewell but the niceee her decided to accompany me to PP : ) but in the end i bought nothing there : \

yay and i left there for school. by then i was perspiring like sm mad dogg. luckily LT2 was quite cold so i managed to chill out a little. practised my song item with steph and yinhong : ) thanks girls! you all made the song superbly nice : ) anyw, ystd's attendance was like, 90% seniors + 10% juniors. okay maybe that was too exaggerated. mmhmm. 80% seniors + 20% juniors. tht's more like it. but nevertheless! we had SOOOO much fun : )

after the performance and all, went concourse for the sherpherd's pie (not sure the spelling, oops!). but i ate nth! was busy preparing the cake outside guitar room. haha. and yay finally, they played the birthday song for the two birthday princesses : ) and i got the cake out! so fun : ) took so many pictures ystd : )

let's take a look at the "before" picture of the beautiful "Chocolate Romance"

look at da presents that i gave my birthday roomie! : )

and the shirts tht i gave darling jenny and skip!

there's my shuijingbaobao and the 18th year old!

the cake kissed me, right tong?

then, the "AFTERRRRRR" of the PRETTY cake, HAHAHA.

it melted allllll overrrr the concourse table! but no worries, we cleaned it up alrdy, just not sure if there's like chocolate smell there. oops ! anyws i felt so bad cause we were throwing cakes around when they were performing! :/ sorry sorry. i shall show how dirty we were ystd when i get the photo from fawn. SHE STUFFED CAKE INTO CRYSTAL'S AND MY NOSTRILS. RAWR. and crystal was like,"ohmyy we have to dig it to clean it!" HAHAHA. was basically fun ystd : ) i thought i got a little high at night. HEHHEHEHE. (stares at jenny, crys and fawn)

HELLLOSSSS EVERYONE. okay, i'm happy tdy! just finished my jap CA2. and HOPEFULLY, i can pass la huhh. today was such a crap day : ) woke up at 8+ cause i dreamt that i received a message and i really did! i received 2 to be exact. and SOMEONE refuseddd to believe me that i really dreamt that! as usual, ate my breakfast and started logging in.. and the first lesson was math online. i was amused cause this was the first HIGH TECH e-learning session that i ever had. ohmyy. and then was bio and chem. bio was productive! and chem, i was laughing throughout the lesson ! (looks at jaspang) it was amazingly AMUSING. HAHAHA. anyway, most of the time i was trying to cram jap into my small little shell up there :\

time passed damn fast tdy. it was like, 3.40 when i last saw the time. and i fell asleep : and woke up at 4.22. went to bathe and everything and i reached the bus stop at 4.40. was freakinggg fast. and know what, i reached bishan at 4.58. i was quite shocked. less than 20 minutes from my bus stop to bishan ?!

yeah, had the test and tadaaa i'm home. and i found this damn obscene photo of myself in mons photobucket! i shall show! HAHAHA.

tsktsktsk. i never knew mons secretly admires me. right. just kidding : )

i'm miss sentosa trip everybody! when shall we go again? : )

: )

FIRSTLY, I WANNA THANK ESTEE WU AND JASPANG!!!

the two of them were really superb friends.

imagine poor lynn who got stuck at the bus stop this morning due to the so damn heavy rain.

and darling wu and pang came to my rescue!

they were dried but cause of me, they suffered from soaked shoes and uniform.

and pang even lost her brolly cause some people didn't bother to return her?!

i'm touched : )

that's what friends are for!

SECONDLY, somehow i was a little pms-y today due to smth.

BUT, guitar made my day. i was so happy playing my alto15 : )

and dear dear jenny who waited for me in school tdy and as usual,

we crapped so much on the way home : )

loves loves jenny : )

OH, today, there was a relief teacher for econs called miss lim.

miss lim: (asking me) hey, wht cca are you in?

me: mmhmms? guitar : )

miss lim: wow, punk hair eh?

happyhappyy : ) i like my hair today too : ) : ) thankyouuu.

and good news! shujingbaobao and fawnnnayyye finally decided to go for farewell!

happyhappy!

alright, it's jap CA tmrw. and i've NOT touched my stuff yet. plus, it's e-learning tmrw. wht luck. sighs. alright, i shan't get sad cause of stupid things : )

HEY! am i impt?

-

BIO-D
CHEM-E
MATH-E

i'm thinkin' of getting chem and math tuition. but. again, it's money.



maybe noone understands, or will never understand. i hate fighting this myself. it's like a self-battle. i don't know. i really don't know. will you tell me what i shld do? i'm sure you can get me an answer, cause you're the answer.

updates !!

just a short update here : )

4-6 july - ILTC!

nice exco pic : ) but my fellow pd's not here tho' : (

6 july - sleepover at mtien's.

after ILTC i was superbly shag. went back home and slept from 4-10pm and decided to go over to tien's house after that haha. and they actually came to fetch me at novena : )

7 july - SENTOSAAAAA with mtien, estee, peiting, mons, jasmine and lays! was ultra fun! played like violent ball/frisbee RUGBY and we were so high til i think some people think we're like a bunch of mad girls. haha.

nice pic here : )

-i'm afraid i'll fall back in again.

It's Thursday!

been a longggggg day. sighs. lessons since morning were so BORINGG. i can hardly stay awake.

anyws, went jogging in the morning with estee. we ran 5 tgth and then i continued another 5 myself. feel so happy! all the endorphine rushing everywhere in my nerves. haha. OH and did i mention? i've gotten an E for Math. WOW. i've gotten EMATH! :) lik Elementary Math. hokayye, lame.

met SKIPPPPP and we went back stnicks for handover tdy! and we were talking about a lot of things but mostly about studies. sighs. dnt worry skip, you can do it! haha.

handover was superrrrrrrr lame alright! i know like 50% of the new exco only cause half of them made up of green badges (sec1s when i graduated). and skip was damn funny. i was asking her if she knows the song "i wanna grow old with you." okay, it went like this.

ME: you know the song,"i wanna grow old with you"?
SKIP: *STARES IN DISBELIEF*
ME: huh?
SKIP: you wanna grow old with me?!
ME: HUH WHT. I MEANT, DO YOU KNOW THE SONG "..."
SKIP: OH LYNN, YOU'RE SO SWEET... (and blahblah)

apparently, she didn't catch the "you know the song..." at the front of my sentence =.= so crap. haha.

anyws, congrats to those who got into the '09 comm! and esp jolene! cause she secured my post! WELFARE ROCKS! carry on the great work girls!

gotta go for camp tmrw. i kinda dread it.. :\ sighs. alright gonna go to bed now and get ready for my date with st, pang and fawn on the track tmrw! BYYE!

HEALTHY LIFESTYLE !

i shall wait til i've got all the nice japan trip photos '08 before i post them : )

ANYW, I WAS LOOKING THROUGH MY JAPAN PHOTOS (the hamamatsu trip in '06) and I WAS FREAKED OUT. I WONDER WHO THAT PERSON IS?! and then i realise that she is my twin sister : )

but sadly, SHE.. DISAPPEARED to wth knows where. BUT i dnt really care tho' cause i would rather never ever see her again :D tht sounds totally mean, but who cares? HAHAHA.

okayy, it's damn crap. but anyway it was me la, when i was in sec three? i was DAMNNNN freaked out when i saw this FREAKKKYYYY photo and immediately i put on my running shoes and went running. AT LEASTTTT 4km k! haha.

I SWEAR i'll never go back to THAT. EXERCISE EXERCISE EXERCISE :)

SUPPORT HEALTHY LIFESTYLE ! HAPPY ! who wanna join LYNN'S FITNESS CLUB? you're free to register with me BWAAAHAHAHAS.

A DAY TO ROT

been a slacking and rotting day today at ST's house with cheryl. i think i spent most of my time sleeping thou. haha

stayed at home until 1 to edit photos hoping to print them for memory's sake but in the end i cannot print it due to some funny reasons which i don't know wht :| rawr rawr.

on the way home i actually told cheryl about 2 types of guys that exist in this world haha. i think it'll be really interesting if she gets a partner! haha. cheryl! must tell me first alright!

and tdy i felt sad and happy at the same time. sad cause i almost lose my thumbdrive which contains my world possessions and happy cause i actually chatted with ONGWENSHINNNN! haha found out some interesting stuff about her. about guys and stuff. one day we should really sit down and talk overnight. i've got stuff to tell you bestie. haha. happy cause i'm talking to mtien right now too. i sudd feel happier than usual :D

-hey you, just tell me

EXAMS OVER !

OHHHH MYYYY GAWDDDD !
EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER.
crap. seriously, i screwed all. i studied!!! not like i didn't but i still screwed. i guessed like 95% of the mcqs tdy. 95/100 X 25 = ? OH NO. i don't feel like calculating.

anyw, went k-boxing tdy with wu and pang! HAHA. omg. we got ourselves all so emotional and stuff. thanks to my liao2 jie3. i bet you guys were mesmerized by my singing :) i feel like posting pang's CANDID VIDEO OF HER SINGING. but i don't think i shld la huhh. in case i get bashed up by her.. (scary..) but IF U WANNA CATCH JASPANG SINGING, COME FIND ME.

fallforyou. secondhandserenade.

The best thing about tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before
I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed
But I have loved you from the start
Ohhhh

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
It's impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in
I'm yours to keep
And hold onto your words
Cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight
When you're asleep

Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
Tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
Over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

update on mon's bday !

before the barbeque!

that's us playing twister!!!! it was damn funny. those awkward positions.. (stares at estee, lays and ben RWAR)

that's estee on the right feeling DERANGED that peiting's tgth with me now and mon's getting all so jealous cause she was MINE before peiting. HAHAHA.

yknow, i have no idea what we were trying to do haha.

me and mon's classmate! who always volunteer to take photos for us! yay thank you!

another picture of me and my CURRENT. SO FUNNY!

again her. haha. let me tell you, dear pt was mistaken as my Girlf last year during CSS audition! my new made friend from IJ tp actually asked me,"hey, is she your girlfriend?" OMG. i stared at her o.O

WU and MEEEE!

HAHAHA. there you go again :)

oh man. there's smth stuck in our mouths. haha

TAKO CHEEKS!

finally, it's cake-cutting time! my dear mon's SO CUTE!

and yeah! me and the birthday girl :) abit she had a forfeit cause she lost twister. and her classmates made her kiss someone. and my cheeks were sacrificed HAHAHA. just joking mons!

can you see what we were trying to form? L.O.Y.A.L.T.Y !

yay group photo!

i find this picture really cute haha :)

peiting FINALLY finished uploading the photos and there they are! went studying in SN with mons, jasmine, lays, pt and estee tdy. had SOOOOOO much fun and laughter. seriously, haven't laughed so much for quite some time. have to thank mons. cause somehow i just kept laughing cause of stupid stuff that she did! was supposed to go for co bbq but was freakin stressed up just now and only 2 red badges goin' so i decided to give it a miss ): sighs.

was a great day!

-i wanna grow old with you

School's reopening

been a tiring day today. studying from like 9am til 645pm at national lib. dozing off every half an hour. time flew tdy... i didn't study much tho'. did jap for the whole day although jap CA's in july. hmms but who asks me to love jap so much!

anyway, i think i'm super pig tdy. came home and binged on chips, chocolates and mom bought the durian pancake thingo and i ate tt also. after studying i went to buy old chang kee and ate pokky. ): sadness. anyw, ate this prune thingo that vivian gave me this morning. super funny haha. then ate sushi for lunch. actually i requested for soya milk only but nice nice fawn says she wants to stuff me with food. so she bought SUSHI. unagi somemore. haha thanks roomie! :)

i'm gna go pray early in the morning tmrw before studying. haha i sudd feel like praying cause i need the assurance. two days ago, emo like mad. now, i just need assurance. school's starting soon and thou i think i studied, i feel empty.

jiayou everyone. all the way!

-

hey estee, i hate the feeling of being lost : (

EMERGE '08

FRANCE EMERGED CHAMPS!!!!!!
I LOVE YOU KIDS! :)

LYNN'S BACK FROM CAMP EMERGE'08! 14/6-15/06. it was the most meaningful camp ever, being able to take care of so many kids and the kids are real cute i shld say! moreover, FRANCE WONNNNN!!!! HAPPY!!
14/6 Preparing and getting ready to set off!





let me intro my mentee :) he's SHAUN :)

yayy! we reached :)

got into our icebreaking groups :) and here's our darling athena and wenting!

and we see jinhan, chengyi, mengsoon, bryan, brandon and christopher (left to right)

look at what our dear boy brandon is doing! haha colouring the FRANCE flag!

and the two girls wilingly carrying my bag my me haha. so cute!

there! our dorm! 've been here before so nothing much :)

LOOK AT HER! doesn't she look very JAP!!!? *stares at her hair* haha.

LUNCH TIME :) but the poor me had to take vegetarian cause of my SPECIAL DIET.

games time! the games felt like some typical orientation games but we enjoyed it thoroughly! definitely!

this was the first game! captain's ball with balloon filled with H2O ! it was super heavy and it was super amusing looking at the kids play! haha.

i'm really happy. when we were playing the games it seemed as though we were rather slow and weak in our cheers but nevertheless the kids tried their very best and it was really a feeling of great satisfaction when we know that we were champions :) there was this specific game that left a very lasting impression on me. we were suppose to fill up a bottle of water to a specific mark using a cloth. meaning dipping a piece of cloth into water and it will be passed through everyone and last, the bottle. we're supposed to squeeze the water into the tiny opening of the bottle. it was very difficult at first but somebody thought of a very smart idea which is using a blade of leaf, fold it into a funnel like thing and use it. increased surface area to volume ratio i guess :) everyone was soooo co-operative during this game. it was then i realised how great teamwork we had. everyone was trying their best to get every single drop into that bottle. we managed to fill to the mark in the end although it seemed impossible at first. totally cool.

i'm definitely gna be part of CDAC childrens' camp again next year. it's a great feeling being a volunteer. to those out there, when you do something for others, you bring smiles to others :) be a volunteer today! :)

OH I FORGOT TO ADD THAT A FELLOW VOLUNTEER MISTOOK ME AS A KID TWICEEEEEE. sadness.

my life's not that bad afterall :)