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今日は楽しかった。

i'm like feelin' so relaxed and all right now. it's all-so-different as compared to that freakin' week before promos. but i've gta work hard for comm serve and jap, rlly. think i took at least 3 hours researching on the jap scholarships and whtever that has got smt to do with japan.

i've decided to try out for JLPT 2 this year, EJU Examination and JLPT 1 next year. hopefully with my JLPT 2 results and H1 results i'll be able to apply for the jap govt scholarship in march next year. i've been wanting to do nutrition since last year and was quite certain that i'll take it. but, i was thinkin' through ystd and i thought chem's rly impt in nutrition. and i dnt know why, i sorta gave up on this "dream" of mine cause my chem simply, to put it crudely, sucks ttm. maybe i shld change my ideal course. definitely, it HAS got to do with jap. maybe i'll take tourism in japan? or smt related to social sciences. nth to do with bio and chem and math. i'll gladly take it up.

ohwells, enough of me blabbering about my future plans. went CDAC today. it was soooooo quiet today.. only shaun, yixuan, doreen and yizhen came cause the rest already had their end of year exams. SHAUN'S SUPER LAZYYYYY ohmyy. he just anyhow guessed all the answers for his math mock paper. grrrr but managed to get him to do it properly in the end. tht's quite lucky for MEEEE. haha.

went to meet gem for dinner after that. been ages since i met her for a meal. probably months? can't rmb the last time. dang. haha but ohwells, had a great time with her today : ) ate yoshi & walked around bugis. cant rmbr the last time we went there tgt too. haha nostalgic.


a photo took after the moon turned DARK blue.

girl's gna take her o's in 8 days & everything's ending in 33 days. everyth just flies. before we know it, everyth's over. just realised i made use of a lot of "everything". -laughs.

gna teach my cousiee tmrw. poor primary 1 has got his exams on monday. his darling jiejie will offer her help to the pretty boy tmrw. see you wei : ) oh but before that i've gt to buy my unicom jap listening book! ohmy.. $58.00?! bye to my monnnneeehhh.

-why? it hurts.

When I'm With You - Faber Drive

Saw you walk in to the room,
Thought I'd try to talk to you
Babe, am I ever glad you wanted me to
It's been two years to the day half the time
I've been away I know I'm not there enough,
but that's gonna change
'cause I'm coming back to show you that
I'm keeping the promise i made

When I'm with you
I'll make every second count
'cause I miss you
whenever you're not around
when I kiss you
I still get butterflies years from now,
I'll make every second count
when I'm with you

Yeah, we've had our ups and downs,
but we've always worked 'em out
Babe, am I ever glad we got this far now
Still I'm lying here tonight wishing
I was by your side
'cause when I'm not there enough,
nothing feels right so I'm coming back to show you that
I'll love you the rest of my life

Only One

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason
I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, but there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go, so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one, and i know you can see right through me so let me go and you will find someone
My only one
you are my only one

:/

woke up at 8 this morning to do pw :/ rly hope can hurry finish get over and done with.

have got:

1. Jap alvl papers 2&3 undone
2. PW
3. Comm Serve yet to be confirmed
4. Plan jap lessons for CDAC kids

no. 1 jst makes my heart break. danggg. wells, i shldn't be feeling sad anymore.

anyw, i asked jenny a qn ystd,

ME: Ong ah, i ask you a very qian bian qn k!

Ong: hahaha, wht?!

ME: Why am i so nice ah?

Ong: (BURSTOUT LAUGHING) HAHAHAHAHAHA!

it was tt moment when it was superrrrrrrrr funny. hahahaha. oops. k, maybe you guys cannot unstd but well, HAHAHA. it was funny :)))

random quizzz

thanks to cher, haha.

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY

1. monster

2. lynnie

3. YO!

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD

1. LJH_lynn (i wonder wht LJH represents)

2. extreme_lynn

3. i can't think of anymore zzz

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

1. my legs? quite muscular i think? haha.

2. i used to like my coolio hair. dang.
3. my face : )

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF

1. my arms are too FAT!
2. too little hair

3. i'm too short

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE

1. JAPANESE

2. hainanese :D

3. i'm hokkien : ) but i speak hainanese =.=

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU

1. FLYING BEETLES
2. jap orals
3. scrolling down your contact list and find nobody to confide in

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS

1. Handphone

2. toilet, like who doesn't need?! haha.

3. sleep

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW

1. my orange-white fbts

2. vj shirt
3. (whtever inside)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW)

1. a lonely september - plain white t's

2. why - secondhand serenade
3. please don't tell her - jason mraz

TWO TRUTHS AND A LIE, IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER

1. i did smt that i've NEVER done in my entire life.
2. i cried like shit ystd.
3. i ate dinner today :D

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU

1. no pock-marked face/pimple-free : )
2. huggable! (this is impt)

3. no B.O

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES

1. drink you-know-what

2. pool!

3. hanging ard and talk crap w friends : )

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW

1. live in japan
2. stop thinkin' about stuffs
3. TURN EIGHTEEN

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED

1. NUTRITIONIST/DIETITIAN

2. japanese tour guide : D (mtien will be my first customer yay!)

3. teach english in japan hoho.

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION

1. JAPAN

2. London

3. Australia

THREE NAMES YOU LIKE

1. tzen

2. nakatsu shuuichi

3. fawn! eh i think your name's cool! haha.

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE

1. go wherever i wanna go.
2. speak like a native jap.
3. tell everyone whom i care for,"i love you!"

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL

1. EAR STUDS

2. i actually like flats. it goes well with jeans :)
3. MY HAIR's like DAMN impt.

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A BOY

1. Short hair

2. my dress sense

3. hates ah lianxz

THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW

1. cheryl

2. estee

3. gem

the metal heart survived. haha.

HAPPY HARI RAYA!

yosh! また２日間！2 more days to ORAL! -shivers

3rd OCTOBER (stares at jaspang) i dnt wanna screw up, totally.

anyw, ystd was damn funny. cynthia, rebekah, chengyan, youngmin and I were TRYING means ways to get the TWO tgt. oops. it'll be so fun to have a 3rd lang couple! : D ohmyy. let's jst wait and see !

had a longgggg text convo ystd & i sort of made up my mind : )

頑張って！

my poor pinkieee :\

my poor pinkiee, now it's all swollen and PURPLISH :/ :/

anyw, it happened like this, had interact meeting til 2 and met up with estee and her classmates for some bball game & THE BALL JAMMED MY PINKIEE ): ): now it's so pain. WHATSMORE, i've got guitar prac tmrw! HOW TO PLUCKKKK. sheesh.

nah anyw, it's okay. took exco photos today whee : )



pretty EXCO <3s

yuppyupp. k anyw, i randomly thought of this imagery. try it out. haha, imagine you are drinkin' with your love one alongside singapore river one pretty night, what will happen next? TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK K : ) HAHAHAHA. -giggles (to cheryl)

it's a thought-provoking sunday

wells, watching hanakimi halfway & decided to just drop a post.

the show, smhw, inspired me a lot. i'm, i dnt know wht to say, and how to feel.

it's been long. alright, probably not as long as it probably is but nobody unstds (except, perhaps, 1?).

kanji wa, hen da na... dnt ask me wht happened cause you wldn unstd.

smt lighter now! hey if you guys are bored, watch jap dramas. they are SOOOO INTERESTING! since most of you may be rotting at home now. -laughs.

PROMOS ARE FINALLY OVERRR -heaves a sigh of relief

: ) i'm quite happy now. just got back from macs with jenny. the poor girl's rly muggin' hard for A's. all the way girl i love you! : )

anyw, think im gna !@#$%^&* screw up my promos. wait til i get my results. i bet i'm gonna get !@#$%^&*( kinda results too :\ but whtever it is, i'm not brooding over it & i wnt. unless i get like 5 Us or smt? haha.

ystd was uhm, fri? went out with estee, mindy, cheryl and peetee. watched mamamia, and seriously, i dnt think it's niceeee. was so fidgety durin' the whole show. only managed to concentrate when they started singing funny songs like "super trouper" & "dancing queen" -LAUGHS. &after that, shopping with cheryl and estee was FUN ttm. sadly for peetee and mindy who doesn have the mood to shop, they went to eat at yosh's. lol. we took quite smtime at Cotton On i suppose? bought 2 pweeetttyyy shirts! : D

&guess wht, i pleaded my mum t cut my hair for me. it's MUCHHHHHHHH better now alright! i was so TRAUMATISED when i cut my hair last Sunday. until ystd. ohmyy. i dnt EVEN wanna think abt how my hair looks ystd. DANG.

this is the result of my mum's efforts haha.


okay it may be like the same to you BUT definitely NOT the same to me. haha. my hair's just too impt to me until i wnt be able to sleep if it gets screwed :/

went out with ong tdy to study supposedly BUT i ended up watching j-dorama. and at 12+ i received jaspang's message & I GOT REMINDED THAT I GOT TO BE AT PAYALEBAR FOR CDAC. i'm super forgetful. damn. then had to make my way down. luckily i was there on time..

anyw, i was damn sian diao when i went there but at the end of the session my mood was muchhh better. i dnt know why. must be shaun la. made me so angry until i forget my emo-ness. -giggles.

anyw, gotta continue my jap HANAKIMI! byyeee.

to end off, ESTEE WUUU. HOWWWWW. I DNT WANT TO SINKKKKK.

A Lonely September

PLAIN WHITE T'S LYRICS

"A Lonely September"

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out'
cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

[Chorus]
Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
And I didn't mean to meet you thenwe were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chillsthe way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

been ages since i've posted. so just decided to post some short thoughts up here.

i look like feng tianwei!? haha. she's cute, so am i. HAHA.

anyw, been mugging for the past few days. getting shagged. but i realised that school's a really good place to study though i take ages to reach. smhow, it's the distance that makes me willingly wake up early to study. today wasnt really productive thou. had midautumn performance for chai chee elderly today. haha. quite okay i guess : )

-feelings never fade.

finally

finally, econs & chem tests are over.

these two stupid tests drove me crazy. actually, it's not really the tests' problem. i've been worrying & worrying & worrying over jap exam. it's jap prelim exam next week. same day as the J2 prelim GP paper. it's my love, i mean jap. but yet, i'm still unable to do well in it. smtimes i tell myself tht if i love the subj i will do well, but smhw, my results do not reflect that.

yknow, i know it's super exaggerating. but this subj, just this subj can make me go into depression. i'll jst have to work hard for it. i'm really tired.

took a cab this morning cause i was too tired. gonna save from today onwards. spent $13 on cab fare and $1.70 in school today. for the next few days i aim not to spend a single cent, i promise.

& i realised how "responsible" some people are. jc's a time to observe and learn, at least to me.

- & i feel alone. i need a hug. tell me everything's okay.

finally finally, connect singapore is OVER.
i'm really tired&all. nonetheless, i think i've learnt a great deal from this. there's a lot a lot that all of us have learnt and gained. i cried after the event but it's jst my natural reaction. it was a lot of time spent on this on my side, so any normal person will feel that way but it's okay i suppose i'm fine now.

i have to thank phs teachers in charge, ms chung and ms kumari. without their help, nothing could have worked out. also aps teachers for all their unstding.

most imptly, my team:
hanyi, elin, jaspang, kailing, wilson, ciyi, patrick, saravanan, kaye, cindy, huimin, sushuen, sylvester, varian, benedict&changhong.

to all these people, i apologise if at anytime during the process i made you all very confused and all, &like my instructions were not clear smtimes. think i shouted over the phone quite a lot of times tdy, but hope all of you unstd. thanks for all of your help.. i rly rly appreciate everything.

jst a few photos: on wednesday, feeling fab! baked banana muffins& made tiramisu : )


&on thursday, received a bottle of mogumogu from youngmin-san. thanks my dear : )


on thursday too. haha fawn's farting domo-kun. haha it looks so cute : )


& the all-so-niceeeeeeee gelare that izz&jingyang had at ps tdy after connectsing.


this pretttyyy doraemon electric guitar that we saw at peninsula plaza.. $880/= seriously, it was really cute and unique..


i'm not in much of a mood to blog today..

but anyw, i'm happy cause i bought stuff for my pretty seniors : ) haha. it's so weird when i feel happy to spend money on others while feel stingy when i have to spend money on myself. mmhmm.

okay, i'm not gonna be angsty anymore. mugging starts tmrw officially. all the best everyone!

: )

i find this collage really nice :D happy memories :D

yayy. going to bed now. nights.

okay, i just finished my bio eassessment. rawr. had 14, then 19 (STUPID CARELESS MISTAKE) followed by 20. okay laaa at least i managed to get a 20 in the end :D

anyw, LOOK AT THE PRETTTTYYY phone up there! GOODNESS ME. the new w980 sony ericsson walkman phone! i was walking around amk hub ystd & i sawwww that! omgg and i saw someone buying it. newly released on 2nd august, but only exclusive to singtel. TSK. WHAT IS THIS MAN. HELLO STARHUB, DO SOMETHING. URGHH. anyw, i really needa get a new phone. but my 6120c brings me loads of memories thou :( :( i'm not gna trade it in so it's hokayy!

or shld i get this? w890i. it's actually good enough for me i suppose.

it's so sleek and quite high class smhw! i wanted to get the w880i last time alrdy. so might as well just get the improved version, wht do you guys think?

sighs. okay.

anyw, i'm still waiting for the updated schedule of PHS for connectsing.. but til now, no news. i'm really getting scared. it makes me feel like a loser. as in the whole programme. it's sometimes so confusing that makes me think twice if i actually make a good in-charge. i've NEVER felt so screwed with projects before. maybe tht's the reason why i've always been emoing. but tht's not all laa. many contributing factors. one major one thou. til now, i've not yet settled that. i dnt know whyy i'm freaking worried about connectsing. i really dnt know why. enlighten me people.

was very emo ystd. sighs. i need extra comfort. & shaun got angry with me cause i never buy him chocolates. wht.. shall get for him after natl day.. kids get angry at the smallest things. but i wish i were them smtimes. so carefree & all :(

everybody in my fam's still ZZZ while i'm up studying & trying to get stuffs right. wht shld i do next? study jap. yes, i shld. prelim's in 3 weeks time. oh and guys, remember, guitar assessment on 4th! which is tmrw laa, duhh. i needa practise later as well. all the best dudes : )

i'm suddenly very sleepy. alright, that's not the point. haha. just came back from thomson medical after visiting mtiennnn. that girl ah. has fever AGAIN. so her mum thought of an alternative method. she's so gonna eat the fever medicine that i ate the other time. i'm sure she'll recover! : ) anyw, i had quite a fun them there joking around with her and her mum : )

back to this morning. ohmyy. i actually missed my stop. YKNOW, NOBODY FROM VJ TRIED WAKING ME UP?! when there were like VJ people on the bus?! like wth. anyw, that's not the worst. i came down the double deck & asked the uncle where VJ was & he told me i missed the stop. so nevermind. i went to the bus stop and the moment i saw 31 i took it without realising that it was heading towards the WRONG DIRECTION. so smart. did you know how i realised that it was travelling in the wrong direction? i saw a lot of TJ people & i was like,"why are T people travelling in the VJ direction?!" i got off the bus & decided to ask jaspang for help. sighs. in the end had to cross the overhead bridge and take another bus back to vj. rawr.

tdy was a fine day i suppose. suddenly very into my work. after schl i actually STUDIED with estee in V21. amazingly..

just a short update here. gotta go bathe now & start rotting. tmrw there's connect sing training in schl & CDAC. busy day ahead. bye !

a day at home

feeling so nasal & all. sighs. i haven't been sick to such an extent for SOOO long. and i so detest, loathe, hate, blah, whatever words you can use, eating medicine. esp the stupid throat and flu medicine which is so bitter. it got stuck in my throat and i could totally feel the yuckkkkiness. rawr.

was so piggg today. woke up at 10+.. ate some stuff and then ate my medicine. copied everything that i missed last week & 2 days ago & then went back to sleep cause apparently the flu medicine causes drowsiness. i've got a feeling i will fall back to bed again cause i ate my medicine AGAIN. rawr. i hate being sick. & cause i was so dead ystd, i screwed my chem spa which was SO easy. AHHH. wasted. feeling so angsty now. hoho.

i'm sweating profusely now, which i dnt know why. AHHH and i wonder how mtien is now. can't go visit her : ( okay i think i need to go to bed again. sighs.

dnt feel bad, because you really didn't do anything. at least you cleared your mind, yes? : )

i'm sick

feeling really sick now. running a temperature and having a throbbing headache, backache and blah. sad to say, i didn't go for 3rd lang again. how many times already huhh. really sad. rawr. i wanna do my work but i can't think properly with my headache. i dnt know why i'm thinking that i contracted dengue. haha shld be cause of mtien eh! haha. & weirdly, my temperature keeps flunctuating up & down! 15 mins ago it showed a different temperature! :\

anyw, this morning ian wu was damn funny. IAN WU ! YOU OWE ME A DRINK! smhow his weirdness made the first smile of my day. haha. jiayou dude! oh & i had connect sing SL training at PHS today. haha. the teacher in charge was really nice! at least she didn't pms me or smth! i expected that before i went.. everything was okay, just that we didn't follow the plan at all cause some level had d&t coursework, the others had ndp rehearsals at marina bay. so, eerything ended real fast. i zoomed past my presentation like nobody's business. but anyw, it wasn as bad as i expected, seriously. hope everything goes fine.

gonna go rest & wait for my mommy to come back so that i can go see a doctor. DR YAPPPP SAVE MEEE.

oh crap, i just remembered, my WRITTEN REPORT!?